Cannonball

I stumble back home and

Leave the door open

6 in the morning

I fall into bed

Your disappointment

It stings like an ointment

Just for a moment

And then I forget

Oh this cold indifference

Boredom and bitterness

I can’t keep doing this

Night after night

I don’t want this anymore

But my heart’s a cannonball

Dragging me under these waves

People don’t change

You smell expensive

But I know it’s rented

Boys can be poison

And still be rose scented

So I wash you off me

Cocaine and coffee

These days you stimulate nothing inside me but

Cold indifference

Boredom and bitterness

I can’t keep doing this

Night after night

I don’t want this anymore

But my hearts a cannonball

Dragging me under these waves

People don’t change